Resuming an incomplete thought….
“I guess my deeper question is, first, are gay communities deeply unhappy? What causes happiness? Are there fundamental, universal laws that dictate when happiness can be felt?”
I believe happiness is not based on words or definitions, it is based on actions—that there are universal laws that govern the things that bring us joy. When I think of the things that bring me joy, my family and my relationship with heaven are paramount in my life. I cannot imagine a life separated from the comfort and stability these forces bring to me. When tragedy struck our family a year and a half ago, life laid me flat with a blow I never saw coming. All I had was tried, and those two aspects of my life, heaven and family, became pillars that supported me. They were strong and solid. They kept my knees from buckling under until I could catch my breath and learn how to begin again. Every one of us on this earth will go through the knockdown that I went through in one form or another. It happens to all of us. I don’t know the answers, but I do know that self pity, unchecked, scars the soul. Selfless service, given with all your heart, is healing balm. That is one truth I learned. The other is that prayer brings relief. Heaven brings the replenishing sun again when all you see is darkness and your flame is drawn and slight.
The gold of that excruciating experience is in the strength found from those principles. There is a part of the human soul that searches for truth and meaning. There are universal truths. The search is life’s challenge, and truth it’s treasure.
“What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly. Heaven knows how to put a proper price upon its goods…” –Thomas Paine